Contentment is something that I have struggled with in my personal life for years. I’m constantly working on being content and even happy where I am in life, regardless of if there are things I still desire or not. Yes, I want a house with a yard for my kids, but I’m content and thankful for the apartment we are in now, and so on.
I find with blogging, I face a similar problem. This time last year I had the idea in my mind that if I could just start averaging 1,000 views a day I’d be happy. That number was so huge to me, I thought I would be completely thrilled and content when I made it.
But then I reached it, and I just started wanting more. Wishing for 2,500 views a day and then when I reached that yearning for 5,000. Each milestone that I hit leaves me hoping for more, striving for it and yes, even stressing over it.
2 years ago I thought I’d be on cloud 9 when I published my book. I figured that, even if it only sold a handful of copies, I would be so happy that I had reached my goal of becoming an author, that it wouldn’t matter.
But, it does matter. I’ve published it and even reached my first month’s sales goal in just 1 week. That’s huge, and yet I still find myself worrying and obsessing over how I can get the book into more hands, and what I can do to make it better.
This is the problem we face as bloggers & writers, because we must constantly be pushing ourselves. We don’t answer to a boss, or corporation, so we have to set our own goals and strive for them ourselves.
This isn’t a bad thing in and of itself. I always want to be pushing myself farther, and striving for new goals. What I don’t want to be is a stressed out mess of a woman because I want to write more posts and sell more books. That won’t help anyone, least of all my family and myself.
Yes, I want to strive to do more. But no, I do not want to be stressed like this anymore.
I’m not going on hiatus. I’m not quitting, I’m just reassessing my priorities. Nothing is going to change around here. But plenty is changing in my heart.
I’m letting go a little. I will still be writing the same amount, but doing it at more specific times. I’ll still be chasing my dreams 100% but I won’t let my dreams chase me. I won’t let them beat me down when I’m not reaching them all within the first 3 minutes of my day.
Strive for your dreams, work hard towards your goals. But don’t let it overwhelm your life. Don’t let your dreams steal your joy. Because then they aren’t dreams, they are shackles taking every meaningful thing in your life, and every success and turning them into reminders of what you haven’t achieved yet.
So now, I’m choosing to be content. Deciding to be happy, with the number of views I’m getting, the amount of money I’m making and the number of books I’m selling.
I’m still working towards more. Still hoping to reach new goals. But I’m also happy where I am.
I’m also letting myself take the night off to spend with my husband, because those link parties won’t make or break my blog, but intentional conversation with my husband will make both of our lives so much better. Missing a twitter party won’t mean the demise of my social media presence but skipping out on praying and thanking God for the gifts He’s given me, will inspire the slow decline of my spiritual health.
A simple shift in priorities.
I’ll still be here, nothing will change on your end (except maybe better content to read) but a lot is changing on my end.
I’m really excited about it.
Will you join me in the journey to contentment as bloggers? I think we’ll like it there.