As I’ve said before, the first few weeks “adjusting” to two babies were a lot easier than I thought they would be. It wasn’t a walk in the park, but it wasn’t that difficult.
And then this week happend. sigh. This is hard. Little Man is acting out A LOT in attempts to get all of my attention every minute of every day. My mommy in law said that it’s because he is just now realizing that Baby Girl is here to stay. So I guess the REAL adjusting starts now.
I haven’t been writing as much as I want to because I’m so mentally worn out by the end of the day that I can’t write the words the way I feel them. I can’t express what’s in my head and my heart while I’m stressed or mentally (and physically exhausted).
Some moments I just want to cry, unfortunately crying is a luxury denied to mothers of little ones ;)
I did have a good cry on hubby’s shoulder the other night and felt much better afterwards. Sometimes it’s good to just let it all out. All the stresses and worries and fears.
And remember that this is just a stage. It won’t last forever. Little Man is about to be TWO. He’s huge. Baby girl is going to be 1 month old on wednesday. Time really is flying by. Too quickly to let things get me down to the point where I can’t enjoy it. It may be hard, and I may feel like I’m going crazy some most days! But that’s okay. I know it won’t be like this forever. But prayers are appreciated!
This post doesn’t have much of a point to it (sorry), except to be honest with how things are going…
You can read the other posts in this series “confessions of an imperfect mother” by clicking the image below. The other posts have much more of a ‘point’ I promise! ;)
Pamela says
Aww, it will get better! they are cuties!
futurehope says
Thanks pamela! <3
and I think they are pretty adorable too. of course I’m quite biased. ;)
Gabrielle says
I can totally relate. My days vary…some are wonderful and somewhat easy, and others are incredibly, ridiculously hard. But I know that the Lord uses my kids to sanctify me, and that’s part of what’s going on. Sanctification is tough! And so is being a mommy to so many little bitties at one time.
futurehope says
so true! thanks for stopping by and letting me know i’m not alone <3
April S. says
Ah yes – I remember those days – hmmm, wait, they are 3 & almost 9 and we still have them! :) Its hard to give everyone the attention they need – the minute I walk through the door after work they all want to talk and they all have a list of demands. Just remember – its ok if they cry and its ok if they have to learn to wait a few minutes until you get done with one. If your little guy is having a day where he needs you more and you just can’t, have your hubby take care of the baby while you snuggle your little man and read a book or something so you can focus on him. Its amazing what just 5 minutes of being really focused on him will do for his attitude. Also, include him in helping with baby so he isn’t left hanging on his own when you are attending to her. Can he help hold the bottle or hand you wipes? Can he pretend to read her a story? Looks like he’s a lover. :)
futurehope says
thanks so much for letting me know I’m not the only one! It is so hard dividing my time now! I do try to involve him, sometimes he goes for it and sometimes not! lol. he’s a bit unpredictable!
Love Is A Verb - an action says
Yes, it WILL get better – my girls are less than 2 years apart too, so I can relate ;) If you can (you may already) get him to HELP you…get diapers, toys, tell him you NEED him; when he feels like he has a huge part, he may not feel so insecure. That helped my girl. I’m sure you’ve received lots of advice – but maybe that helps. I will be praying. Christy
futurehope says
Thanks for saying it will get better! I needed to hear that! lol
I try to get him to help when I can, he enjoys it most of the time! but sometimes he’s against it. lol
I always appreciate advice! I’m just learning so any input is welcome!!! :)
Aprille says
This post reminds me why we are waiting to have baby #2. I hate that Ezra doesn’t have a sibling and I wish that he was going to have a sibling close in age to him, but I think for my sanity and our family, waiting has definitely been the right decision!!
Paula says
The first few months are definitely rough! Now that princess is almost 6 months it is much easier! and I’m able to enjoy it a lot more ;)
Renee says
Yes we all have those days that we need a good cry and then feel better :-)