My last post was really from my heart, lots of fears and doubts in there, but there is confidence too. Depends on what day you catch me, or even what time of day sometimes how confident I’m feeling about being the mommy that I want to be to my kid(s). I suppose that worrying is part of being a mother. But I don’t want to be so caught up in my worries that I miss my baby growing up, or that I don’t allow him to grow up as he should. I know that things won’t always go perfectly, and that I am going to mess up at times as a parent. But I don’t want my babies to be able to look back on their lives and say that it would have been easier/better if they had had a different mom. I don’t want to hinder my kids, I want to help them. I want to be there for them, and be/supply what they need – not always what they want, but definitely what they need.
I’m a mom part 1
I want to have the kind of heart that Hubby’s mom has. I’m not going to parent the same way she did on a lot of things, but the one thing I really admire is how much her kids love her. Hubby’s relationship with her speaks more highly of her than anything else could. He is SUCH a mommy’s boy, but it a good way. They share a really special bond, one that I never had with my parents, but one that I hope to have with my kids.
I’m pretty observant, and I watch other mothers and kids and try to figure out what every body is doing, and why. and the crazy thing is, there is not one person that I could find that I want to be just like in regards to mothering. There are lots of mommies that I admire, but there is always something, that I think I would do differently with my kids. I feel like I’m taking a tiny bit of each mommy style and mixing it all together. We will see how it turns out. I think I do that though because I don’t believe there is a one size fits all for parenting. Every family is different, and every baby in every family is different. I have lots of plans for how I want to do things right now, but when it comes down to it, I don’t know how many of the things I am going to stick with. It depends on my kid, it depends on how our lives are when we reach the different stages. There are some things that I believe strongly it that it would take a lot for me to change my mind on, and there are others, that, while I have my plan to start out with, but I’m totally open to changing things according to what is best for my family as we learn and grow together.
it’s and exciting learning adventure being a mom.
and I love it.
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