A few days ago I wrote a post about finding myself in motherhood. While motherhood is often equated with losing yourself, after 2 and a half years I’ve realized that the opposite can be true as well (but you can read all about that in the post).
The discussion in the comments section of that post was one of the most interesting we’ve had in awhile. Several moms shared how they too had found themselves after becoming moms but there were some that were still feeling a bit lost in motherhood.
I have definitely been there too. My entire first year of motherhood I felt lost, and downright lonely. I thought I was so prepared for motherhood, but it took a greater toll on me emotionally and mentally than I ever imagined possible. I was definitely lost, and had no idea what to do.
So I wanted to write this for the ones that are feeling lost today. We’ve all been there, and even after we “find ourselves again” there are still days when we feel utterly lost all over again. Ironically, a few days after I wrote the post mentioned above, I started feeling stressed and demoralized by life. It’s easy to feel overlooked and overwhelmed as a mama. It’s oh so simple to get lost in the mundane and forget to see the beauty. And let’s face it, changing 15 dirty diapers and wiping up over a dozen spills and being bossed around by a toddler all afternoon is enough to make any one feel lost.
So if you find yourself stuck today, wondering how you are going to make it ’til bedtime, through the week, or the long years ahead, let me remind you: just because you feel lost today, doesn’t mean you always will be. Just because you feel unnoticed doesn’t mean no one cares. Every time you wipe a bottom, or kiss a scratch, every mess you clean, and story you read, each action is seen by the Almighty God who cares for you.
Your service is enough. You are enough.
Though you may feel lost along the way, this is only a season, and you will find yourself again. Embrace where you are, embrace who you are now, and you will find who you want to be, ready to shine in the beautiful ordinary of motherhood.