I’m not really sure why this happens to me, but sometimes I find myself doubting myself and worrying that everything that I do as a mother is wrong. Even in things that I know are good and right… sometimes the doubts still creep in and make me worry. Maybe it is just human nature and every mother goes through this. Maybe I am alone. I don’t really know.
What I am realizing through it is how much faith it takes to raise a child. I love being a mommy but parts of it are still so scary. This child’s life is literally in my hands. What a weight. What a responsibility. What a reason to cry out to God for help daily. hourly. every minute even. Before I had my baby I figured the faith part of parenting came in when the baby is sick etc. and things are outside of your “control”. But now I am seeing it is SO much more than that. It is having faith that God will guide you as you shape this little person’s life. It is having faith that even when you do mess up God is there with grace, both for you and your child.
Every breath and every moment is by faith in God.
Maybe it is crazy that it took having a child to help me really see that, but it did. You don’t really see all your faults until you are trying to raise up the next generation and then every failure seems to shine so much brighter and every success seems dull in comparison. That is how I often feel anyway.
I know that God is bigger than every mistake I have and will make raising my child(ren). and I am so immensely thankful for that.
Let’s remember to take time today and thank God for all that He has done to show us how to raise our kids. And to ask him for wisdom as we continue the lifelong journey as parents. <3
Ro Elliott says
dropping in from laura’s…I can attest…God is so very faithful when we ask for wisdom…I wrote today how God had grace for the gaps we leave in parenting…He is so faithful…just keep holding on to him. blessings~
Jelli says
It really is a blessing to know that God gives us the very wisdom we need to raise children day by day as we ask. Enjoy your sweet littles.
Rebecca says
Hey Beautiful! This was a wonderful post. I had the same response with our first. Having a preconceived notion of what faith in parenting meant or would include. and then asking God the second night we had her home, “Why did you give her to us, God? And why in the world did the hospital let us take her home?!” hahaha You’re doing motherhood wonderfully and with passion. *kisses*
And thanks for linking this post up with MOMS AGAINST MANIC MONDAYS blog hop. :)
With love,
Rebecca
Krystyn @ Really, Are You Serious? says
Yep…everyday I have my doubts. I think we are human. I would worry if I didn’t doubt if that makes sense?